Pavel's 15

Happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear Pavel

happy birthday to you.

Pavel Petunia Blue is 15 years old today. He spent most of it sleeping just like it was any old day. Here's another shot and dosn't he look young here

Really kittenish isn't he?  Not bad for 15

and here's his big foot.........yowsers Patty........!

Pavel is doing well and is such a joy to us.  I cannot imagine a life without him around.

Here's a quote from Jean Cocteau:

"I love cats because i love my home and after a while they become it's visible soul"

Yes, that's so true; Pavel is the heart and soul of our home. He is so loving and beautiful and content to be ours.  He has grace and power and mysticism even when he sleeps. I know that when he's gone his absence and silence will be overbearing.

And unfortunately that time creeps nearer as another year adds up. Cats can live into the twenties, and we did have one who almost made that. Will Pavel have another 5 years with us? 

He seems healthy although he sleeps most of the time.  Well, what else is there for him to do? He dosn't go outside, no need to hunt for food....he does get up once in a while to find another spot to crash in. And he loves to find a sunbeam to relax in but sunbeams don't happen every day. He also loves to watch car commercials. And he loves snuggles and thats what we do best. 

Nighty night now Pavel; i know you're tired and bored with the posing but lol! do you have to look so crabby! C'mon, a little smile......pleeze.............



The wisdom of Mother Teresa

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it's between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

Mother Teresa Aug. 26, 1910 - Sept. 5, 1997

Dreams/Nightmares

Dreams and nightmares; i guess we all have them. Do they mean anything? Are they a sign or warning? Do you pay any attention to your dreams? Especially the bad and reoccurring ones……..what do you do with them?


My there’s a bad man in the house nightmare has been reoccuring for a long time. Today as i was cleaning and sorting out a bunch of papers i came across an accounting of one of these dreams. It was dated Sept. 2006 and i had just started an online class on Julia Cameron’s The Artists Way.  I think i only lasted about 2 days in the class, but anyway, this was day one instructions - hand write 3 pages on anything that comes to mind first thing every morning….

This is what i wrote:

“Last night i dreamed that i was just stepping out of the shower when i heard a bell toll 3 times. I opened the bathroom door and started down the hall wrapping a towel around myself as I went. Suddenly a man stepped out in front of me. He was tall and thin with a long narrow nose and he was wearing a baseball cap. He saw me and changed his mind about robbing the place and he turned and ran out the door as i shouted “you bastard; get the fuck outta my house” I went immediately and locked the door and then it dawned on me - what if there’s another one and he’s still in the house? What to do now; unlock it and run out? Leave it locked, stay in and hope there’s not another one. Do burlars usually come in pairs?"

This “morning page” mentioned how i was concerned about the sound of the bell tolling 3 times, like in the Bible when the cock crowed 3 times and Jesus knew that he had been betrayed. Am i comparing myself to being able to receive signs like Jesus? Or what?

It’s always the same theme; Bad man in the house!!!  and i wake up hyperventilating and drenched in fear and panic but not jerking bolt upright like they do in the movies. The characters change and sometimes it’s two men; other times it’s one. Always strangers although i feel that they’re real men and i could identify them if i ever saw them again. What would i do if i saw him out shopping or somewhere....i'm no Alison Dubois so can't very well tell the chief of police.....uh sir, i dreamed that man is a bad man....

Last night i had the dream 3 times and jolted awake after each one. Different burglars every time and for the first time i recognised one of them. He was a country music star who used to have a tv show. I haven’t even thought about him in 20 yrs or more. Buck Owens i think it was, and maybe he’s dead by now, i don’t know; I’m not even a country music fan. He wore blue jeans and a baby blue plaid shirt and he looked young and fresh faced and energetic. What the heck was he doing in my house looking like he was just about ready to grab his guitar and burst into a cowboy song!?!!?